REVELATIONS While rewatching the season finale of Orphan Black (again)…
The “I’m sick” scene? I made a point of watching Delphine this time, since so much of the focus in that moment is on Cosima that you don’t generally notice her reaction, and.
That hug. That fucking hug. All the fics and the analyses of that moment always focus on Delphine being there for Cosima. And that is undoubtedly what she is doing. But that is NOT all there is to that hug.
Watching Delphine’s face in the moment before it was just my proof. She knows by Cosima’s tone and face EXACTLY how serious the situation is. She can’t afford to react too intensely — not only would that only scare Cosima more, but she knows that she doesn’t have the right anymore to react as a lover would. She hasn’t come even close to having earned that back yet. So for the most part, she hides her reaction.
But still, we see it. It’s there. It’s in the furrow of her brow. It’s in the almost double-take, the sudden inclination of her head when the words out of Cosima’s mouth and the expression on Cosima’s face register. It’s in that slight downward tilt at the corners of her lips and the softness of her eyes.
And when she hugs her? She BURIES herself in that hug. She holds on tight and stays there. That is not just the hug of someone simply offering comfort to someone else. That is the hug given by someone who needs to BE comforted as well.
Remember, she’s not only just discovered that the woman she’s fallen for is seriously ill, she’s just found out also that Cosima is literally OWNED by the very people Delphine has been working duplicitously for, UNDER THE ILLUSION THAT SHE WAS DOING IT TO PROTECT HER.
Delphine is devastated. Absolutely and completely. She hates Leekie, she hates herself, she’s terrified of losing Cosima (whether to the Neolutionists OR this illness) and she knows Cosima isn’t even close to taking her back and she can only HOPE that she will continue to be allowed to help.
So as much as that scene is, yes, about Cosima… Delphine is in pain as well.